Mindless Quizzes

I'll try to keep the quizzes I take in one big posting.

(8-18-06)
The keys to my heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

.....very true

How emotionally mature am I

***You Are 58% Grown Up, 42% Kid***
You've grown up a good bit, but you still have a way to go before you're emotionally mature.

You have the skills to control your emotions, you just have to use them.

Sesame Street Personality quiz

***You Are Elmo***
Sweet and innocent, you expect everyone to adore you. And they usually do!

You are usually feeling: Talkative. You've got tons of stories to tell. And when you aren't talking, you're laughing.

You are famous for: Being popular, though no one knows why. Middle aged women especially like you.

How you live your life: With an open heart. "Elmo loves you!"

What color should my blog be?

***Your Blog Should Be Purple***
You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything.

You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

How much I've changed in 10 years

***You've Changed 60% in 10 Years***
You've done a good job changing with the times, but deep down, you're still the same person.

You're clothes, job, and friends may have changed some - but it hasn't changed you.

How shy I am

***You Are 76% Shy***
You are a very shy person, and it has started to impact your life in a negative way.If you can avoid human contact, you usually do. And as a result, you miss out on a lot.

......not really a suprise. I'm just shocked my score wasn't higher.

How happy I am

***You Are 36% Happy***
You're not miserable, but you could stand to be a lot happier.

Focus on what's right in the world, and you'll be happier than you ever thought possible.

......kind of an emabarrrassing thing to admit. But, I learned how NOT to be happy from my upbringing

What element is my soulmate

***Your Love Element Is Water***
In love, you connect deeply and commit totally.For you, love is all about taking risks and moving into unknown territory.

You attract others with courage and confidence.Your flirting style is defined by your flexibility and ability to adapt.

Nurturing and shared learning are the cornerstones of your love life.And while you may jump in to love too quickly, you always come out the wiser for it.

You connect best with: Metal

Avoid: Earth

You And another Water element: will pull each other down into a dark place

How much of a Cancer I am

***You are 93% Cancer***

......not a suprise. I only had one false answer. I've always seemed to be a textbook Cancer. Not suprising, either, that I would connect best with a Water sign.

What Personality Disorder am I

***You May Be a Bit Borderline...***
Your mood swings make a roller coaster look tame!

When you're up, you're a little bit crazy...And when you're down, your whole world is crashing

Scary thing is, these moods can change by the minute!

......No Shit??????!!!!! ROFLMAO

Am I a sociopath?

***You Are 52% Sociopath***
You're not a sociopath, but you're very prone to antisocial behavior.Other people's opinions matter little to you. You live your own fringe life - for better or worse.

.....hmm.....

***I am 60% Weird***

.....at least I'm not 80-100% weird

How American I am

***You Are 50% American***
America: You don't love it or want to leave it.But you wouldn't mind giving it an extreme make over.

On the 4th of July, you'll fly a freak flag instead...And give Uncle Sam a sucker punch!

......actually, at this point, I do want to live in an another country. Bush sucks ass.

What does my candy heart say?

***Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me"***
A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out.Your heart is open to where ever love takes you!

Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out

Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking

What turns you off: fighting and conflict

Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love

.......I have had many many people tell me that I'm a sweetheart

What drug am I like?

***Your Personality Is Like Acid***
A bit wacky, you're very difficult to predict.

One moment you're in your own little happy universe...And the next, you're on a bad trip to your own personal hell!

ROFLMFAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm always tripping out on one thing or another. LOL!!!!!!!!!!

How evil am I

***You Are 34% Evil***
A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.

In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

......the options they gave, made me realize I'm not really evil. I don't do bad or unlawful things to hurt anybody......except myself. I guess that is "the most dangerous kind of evil".

What Xmas movie is most like my family?

***Your Christmas is Most Like: A Christmas Story***
Loving, fun, and totally crazy.Don't shoot your eye out!

....my favorite xmas movie!! LOL

What should I be for Halloween?

***Your Haloween Costume Should Be***
A Mental Patient

......there should be a net-acronym for: Laughing So Hard I Start Choking!!! Oh, that's too funny!!! Been there, Am that!

What's my IQ?

***Your IQ Is 80***
Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Below Average
Your General Knowledge is Average

relationship quiz

I borrowed this from a submissive's website. The link is: http://www.aslavesheart.com/

1. Longest relationship?
6 months

2. Shortest relationship?
a week

3. How many people have you broken up with?
7

4. How many times have you truly been in love?
once

5. Are you in love right now?
so not

6. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you?
one

7. Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with?
no

8. Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
in the sense that the feelings of love were really intense--no

9. Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
no

10. Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend?
most definitely

11. Are you happier single or in a relationship?
i'm happy being single now

12. Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend?
Yes, but only when I was young and stupid

13. Have you ever been cheated on?
yes

14. What is the best part of being in a relationship?
having someone to hold

15. What is the worst part of being in a relationship?
trying to determine boundaries

16. Worst relationship?
David but Steve is a close second

17. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes

18. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
don't know

19. Do you talk to any of your exes?
no

20. If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your exes, would you?
it would be nice, but no

21. Do you think any of your exes feel the same way?
don't know

22. What is your ideal boyfriend or girlfriend?
someone I can talk and laugh with for hours. someone who's not afraid to be playful

23. Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
i haven't been in the past, and haven't been with anyone in a long time

24. Have you dated people who were not good to you?
yes times 1,000,000

25. Have you been in an abusive relationship?
yes

26. Name your most memorable ex if you have one.
a guy I met in NJ

27. Have you dated someone older than you?
I've been with older men, but it's not the same thing

28. Younger?
yes

29. What is one thing that all of your exes had in common?
most were abusive

30. Do you regret anything that you have done with a boyfriend or girlfriend?
I regret something I did to an ex

31. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over a boyfriend or girlfriend? yes

32. When is the last time that you were in a relationship?
2003

33. Believe in love at first sight?
not sure

34. Ever dated two people at once?
yes, not proud of it.

35. What's the perfect date?
July 6, my birthday

36. Ever been given a promise ring?
no

37. Ever been given an Engagement ring?
no

38. Do you want to get married?
I would very much like to

39. Do you have something to say to any of your exes?
I am so glad I've moved on; except one

40. Ever stolen someone's boyfriend or girlfriend?
Huh?

41. Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?
yes

42. Do you believe in true love?
yes, The Princess Bride is my favorite movie

43. Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
yes, its miserable

haven't posted in a while

I haven't posted here for awhile, since before summer. I've been taking a break, been trying to not even THINK about D/s stuff. I keep re-evaluating how I feel about D/s, I suppose as my healing journey progresses so does my D/s journey.

hmmmm, life can be interesting

well, i don't think it's going to go anywhere with the Dom i had coffee with yesterday. what's the old adage? if a guy doesn't call you the next day, forget about it? well, he hasn't emailed me all day today.

and, anyway, i contacted a Dom from my town on collarme a few days ago. We've been emailing back and forth about starting training, and He agreed tonight. so, i'm hoping that it will be a good experience.

It turned out he was only playing with me. Well, fuck him. (8-18-06)

a Dom that i met months ago contacted me

hello hello....

hmmm
I met A early in the year, at a local bdsm meeting. He was very nice, very respectful. I wasn't in any place to meet anyone at the time, which is probably why he said he was with somebody. I was disappointed as hell, but what are ya gonna do? :) lol
I remembered who he was, though.
On friday, or thursday, i was browsing around on collarme.com. Nobody's contacted me on that site for months, so I wasn't expecting anything, but I go there to read the forums.
And, A contacted me via chat, and we talked for about an hour. And, we made plans to get together this week. He said he would have definite plans today. I talked to him again on chat this morning, for another hour. We're meeting for coffee tomorrow. We're also planning on playing a bit. If things go well at coffee. I think they will. I'm not getting any red flags, and I'm actually communicating well with him. I'm feeling good about it.

Today, before therapy, I decided to go back to a Domestic Violence group at the YWCA, that I took four years ago. Just as a refresher. I'm not expecting DV (I'm trying to have very very good thoughts about him), but the course was a very good one. And, with my relationship history, it seemed essential to have the concepts fresh in my mind.

The groups are on Monday nights, so, hey, how well did THAT work out??
I just got home. First impulse I had after about 15 minutes: to run screaming far, far away from the lifestyle, and hide in a hole.
First thought I had: DV can happen in any relationship. So, unless I wanted to hide in a hole in Siberia, I was going to run into the possibility of it in any relationship I would want to have.
Second thought I had: if I don't watch my back, no one else will. If I don't want to end up dead, and I don't, I need to be vigilant of these kinds of things. So, I'm doing good for myself. Yay me. So, I think it's going to be good.
I'll come back and write about the meet tomorrow.

I found the reasons behind Steve

Yay!!!
I finally realized why I kept going back to the son-of-a-bitch. I used him as a distraction when my life started to suck so bad I couldn't stand it.
And, actually, it's easy to stay away from him know that I know this. I know that I can cope differently, and I don't need him, anymore.
I don't think anyone in my 3D life, or anyone who's read this blog for that matter, is convinced that I mean it, this time.
I'm not even sure if I mean it. But.....I do know that this time is different. I haven't seen him now for about a month and a half to two months.

In other news.....my dear friend, Barb, who I met at a slosh, passed away this last Sunday. She was a good friend. She was the best. She had cancer, but she was so very up-beat and positive about life. She was so sure she was going to beat it. She might have, but she had a heart attack, and that combined wiht chemo that kept making her seriously sick......
I'm going to miss her.
May you have peace, Barb.

am I not pathetic??

oh yes, i think so.

deep down, i keep waiting for steve to call. every time the phone rings, i get all excited, and i run for the phone. .....i'm not sure what i would d0 if he actually callled.

i want him to tell me that he's moved on blah blah blah, and he can finally be with me. i know it's not true; that's not going to happen.

a friend told me that steve and i keep running into each other b/c i'm not over him, and our energies keep 'calling to each other'. i firmly agree with her. she gave me some ideas to protect myself from his energy. i haven't tried them, yet. i guess i'm not ready.

i need to get over him, again. i need to get over him.

changing the subject....i've been having a lot of dreams lately about being in high school. not actual memories, but being in uniform in an all-girls school. last night's dream....i couldn't quite hear what the teachers were saying. i dream about being in marian's staircases, going to and from class. last night, i was a junior. most of them, i think, i'm a sophomore or freshman.

(in the high school i went to, there was a lot of competition between the classes. if you were a freshman, you learned you were on the bottom of the "totem pole". if you were a senior, you were very proud of it. sophomore year, you couldn't wait to be a junior. junior year, you couldn't wait to be a senior.)

anyway.....it's very weird dreaming about school so much.

I called it quits with Steve

I'm trying to be optimistic about this time. Deep down, I'm not sure if I can keep my resolve. I'm hoping ::crossing fingers:: that the insight I had the other day will help me leave.

I talked to him tonite, and he was like "oh yeah, she's being all nice and sweet...blah blah blah. I told him I thought it sounded like smoke and mirrors. He said, "what do you mean?" I was like, It sounds like bullshit" He was like "oh no, I don't. I want this to be amiable. The less chaos the better." Huh????

I made the decision, I don't want to wait around forever for the situation to resolve itself. He's not going to get off his duff. Which means that I have to....and go on with my life.

So, I wash my hands of the whole thing. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.